They say I am random. I randomly do things. I mean to say: I do not discriminate; there is no hidden agenda; no subtext. I have no reason to do anything, but to just do it. I haphazardously decide to move from one thing to the other, basically without any thought really. Which might make me a little casual, I guess. I should probably care more about things. To show a little more - I don't even know the word for it - show some sort of purpose or plan. If you don't have a plan: life happens. And if you plan, you loose spontaneity and creativity. For me when creativity is gone I seem to loose all interest. I don't know why, but there you have it.
I get so demotivated that I do not see a point to any of it. That is how I got into couch surfing. Everything on there is fast. Everyone on there loves to travel and to make connections. Of course it is cheaper than staying in a hotel. But still, even in the most expensive hotel you find insects. Especially in Van Nuys! You know the pest control people told me, the other day, the area is infested with bed bugs. they have no clue what to do about it. They warned me not to move there. They were vehement about the bedbugs as they removed a couple of black widow nest around my house. Seriously those guys look like ghost busters reincarnate!
I did not tell those guys I started dating a Buddhist; I did not know they were allowed to date. Apparently they can. I would not be allowed to kill anything. It is one of the 5 precepts. When I found out he had a partner my life took a turn. It so happened that it was quite the liberator. Not sure how it happened but I felt liberated. Even me! I feel free. I feel like I found my inner core. I felt complete, so there was no reason for me to stick with either of them. Never takes long for me to find someone. So now it is me and Buddhism. But it matches in with my botanical endeavors.
I really like plants and how they grow on things. Make me feel like taking a course in how to make furniture, but furniture for plants. How does your pet plant like to grow. I am sure not many people out there make furniture for plants. I think it would be perfect bedbug free plant furniture. That way I can get up in the morning make my own yogurt out of soy and grow my veggies and fruit indoors. Maybe even built a earthship greenhouse. That would be magnificent, don't you think?
